It has been some time since I last posted...in fact funnily enough it was just after the Reiki One attunement and just as we were beginning our 21 day cleansing period. Phew, this some cleansing period, I am feeling it more this time than I have ever done previously, probably not helped by the unsettling nature of the recent full moons, which have well and truly shaken things up and thrown light on the shadow side...there is no more escaping.
Funny how you can be so unintentionally unaware of the fact that you have outgrown the life you have been living, so that it no longer fits. I mean you know something isn't quite right, but you do not realise what it is, until the moon and Reiki and yoga help to make it clear, let alone the angels who are trying to get your attention along the way.
So the words that have appeared in my life these last few weeks have been alignment - no surprise that my neck has been out of alignment at the same time that my outer life is out of alignment with my inner truth - and nurture, or the need to nurture. And with that the realisation that we can continue to live as we are living, but it will not bring us the feelings of happiness, peace and security that we are seeking. It is a bit like that wonderful quote, "if you always do what you have always done, then you will always get what you have always gotten".
The process of change, or transformation then, is never easy, and the best thing is to get yourself out of the way. Only that you have such a vested interest in the process that this is easier said than done. I like to think that it is an uncasing, that a part of you is no longer needed, the old stuff, a layer can come off, but the coming off is the hard bit, because we have a habit of wanting to hold on.
So I have dig deep and been very fortunate to support the journey with some reflexology, acupuncture, Ayurveda, Reiki and chiropractor work, let alone my daily yoga practice and a powerful Vedic chanting session with a visiting yoga session. Plus of course the ears of some good and trusted friends.
So life has been a bit of a challenge this last few weeks not helped with the seasonal virus circulating the family - funny how this happens in Autumn, a release of all that phlegm and helping the transition from summer to autumn. Elijah is still not sleeping more than 2-3 hours at a time at night either, and the collective 11 months of sleep deprivation does finally feel very heavy on my eyes and indeed spirit...but I am reminded that this too will pass.
It all sounds a little down and out, but really life is full of so many blessings - this healing is a blessing, even though it does not feel it at the time. But really this is the joy of Reiki, and indeed yoga, but Reiki especially this time, that it helps to bring us closer to our truth, to align our inner and outer worlds, to empower us to make changes so that that which no longer serves us drops off, and so we may grow a little stronger and committed to the path. And there is a lot of learning in the process - of healing, cells, energy, mind and body.
I am hoping that the more we can all hold to the truth and to the light, the more this will help to balance the imbalance of darkness and light in this world. There is so much darkness in the news these days and usually I try to ignore it, put my head in the sand, but it has been difficult to ignore, that I find it distressing, which actually serves no use either. So I figure all I can do is pray and practice and chant and open my heart and smile and share light where I can and try and make myself a better person so that this can be a better world to live in. All we can do is try. And when we fall down, pick ourselves up and try again...and again...and again.
On that note I am off to bed...sleep is indeed the greatest cure of all.
With much love and light