Wow, it has been some time since I have found any time to sit down and type on here. Life is like that though, peaks and troughs. One thing is for sure though, I am looking forward to a quiet trough again!
It has been an interesting time of late. I have been seeing my Ayurvedic doctor again for one thing or another and so the last few months have been spent taking lots of herbal concoctions to help get to the root cause of the problem. This is the joy of Ayurveda, it doesn't just treat the symptoms as the allopathic treatments tend to do (and needless to say never truly solve the problem) but really tried to literally ease out at the root. Not to say it is a an easy process, the mind and body are so connected that what presents as a condition in the body is a reflection of some "imbalance" in the mind or way of thinking and consequently in the lifestyle generally. So one does need to be prepared to look at oneself honestly, which is never ever an easy process, we are always in some level of denial.
So it is a process. And it is fascinating when you can finally stand back and see what has been going on. I have come to realise how I have been in denial about many aspects of my life, really very not easy, because with that comes the realisation that there will be other aspects I am not yet ready to "see" or indeed accept. And life has thrown the challenges, so that one does come to see things a little more clearly.
I have felt recently that I have gone backwards, that my attitude and mental make-up was very reminiscent of where it was over 10 years ago now before I discovered the joy of yoga and reiki. This is not entirely true of course, but I gained a glimpse nonetheless so that I have become aware that the remnants of the pattern are still there, somewhere. And of course I fought in my denial, as we tend to do when we have a vested interest, clinging on, always right, until we are ready, prepared then, courageous enough maybe to accept where improvements could be made, where we need to let go...and let God in.
Which is generally when things start to shift. Just invite the Divine into your life and get yourself out of the way. Simples as Aram would say. And when you do eventually do this phew, what a relief...clarity, calmness, ah, no more fight, gentleness, and time to truly be quiet.
Well I am there. In the quiet space. Dust settling. Soul craving time out. Phew (that was a powerful new moon).
Elijah and I had a magical moment this week when we went out walking in the lanes and stopped to look at the "moos" and all 8 of them came up to us and just stood with their beautiful faces fascinated by Elijah as we were both fascinated by them. It is moments like that that remind me of the interconnected nature of all beings, of this world, of life. And love. How much love there is in this world. I smile at the memory.
Keep well and standing in your power.