Amazing. Thank you dear Universe for this wonderful weather. Hooray for the sunshine, what a difference it makes. Makes everyone cheerier and happier somehow. It is a new moon today too, happy new moon everyone, you can feel the energy changing, the wind has blown in to blow away the old, to make way for the new.
Great timing too. Sometimes life has a habit of getting a bit out of balance and my soul has been crying out for some down time in the sunshine surrounded by nature. All prayers have indeed been answered these last 3 days. Friday afternoon I was fortunate to lie in the garden for at least an hour before meeting E and his friend at Vazon for a high tide swim and a lie down in yet more sunshine hearing the sound of the sea and feeling the sensation of all those warm pebbles under my back.
On Saturday we went to Jersey with the folks for this most magnificent party. Wow. A 15th wedding anniversary with absolutely no expense spared. E joked at me before we went about the prospect of dancing girls. Well how funny then to arrive and find exactly that! So too fire throwers, hoola hoopers, music, yet more dancing and indeed signing ladies, a comedian from the UK, a beautiful buffet, fireworks, endless champagne, the most marvellous marquee, wow, this was certainly well worth the short journey from Guernsey!
Sunday with the folks, we all went down to a beach on Jersey's north coast, lovely, a couple of hours of sunshine, sea air, sand and a couple of dips in the freezing cold sea was indeed very good for the soul!
I have been reading this wonderful book by Jack Kornfield called "After the Ecstasy, the Laundry", which resonates hugely with my experience of spirituality and its ups and downs. To me the experiential nature of one's spirituality is paramount, it is all very well intellectualising, but at the end of the day it is all about the hear and now and living it, being conscious and awake to each moment. This in itself is indeed an on going process, for it is all too easy to fall asleep again, so too is it necessary to go allow for integration and moments of down time to absorb, reflect and of course let go to make room for the new.
This whole concept of letting go has sprung itself back in my face again. I would like to think that by now I am able to read the signs, but of course I am only human and it takes me almost to crash and burn to realise that it is time to re-balance and retire to that quiet place where one can let go and sit quietly. There is this beautiful angel card called "Surrender & Release", which reads,
"Let go, and allow God and the angels to help you. Everything that you release will either be replaced by something better or will be returned to you healed. When you hold on tightly to a part of your life that's not working, it has no room to heal. Whether you're unhappy with your love life, finances, career, home, or health, this card asks you to let go. If you hang on to these aspects of your life because of fears such as "What if I can't find someone or something better?" then the situation will only worsen. However if you're willing to open your hands and allow the situation to be freed, one of two situations will occur: Either it will be washed away from you and replaced by a better situation, or the situation will heal in a miraculous way. By drawing this card, the angels ask you to try not to control the outcome of your troubling situation. Let go, and let God help you!".
It is so true, that often we need to get out of our own way. Meditation helps enormously, what a joy to be able to sit outside quietly in the morning sunshine too, nature certainly helps to ground us in the moment. In this way the mind calms a little so that clarity can be experienced, so too the quiet moments of gentle sitting allow the whisperings of the heart to be heard above the normal chaos of the mental chatter. One can then write a list of all those aspects of one's life that are no longer working and offer it to the Universe, in your own little ceremony, for there is much power in ritual, just search the internet for "burning bowl ceremonies" for example.
The key as always, is loving kindness, to the self, to others, to the process of unfolding and letting go however challenging this may appear and indeed feel in the moment. Allow tears to fall as one weeps away the old, creating a wonderfully fresh and vibrant environment for the new to enter - it is like they say, when one door closes, another opens.
Here is wishing you all a sun filled happy day, enjoy the fresh air, the sensation of the sun on the skin and the experience of spending time in nature - if you can!
Happy birthday to my Mum too, what a wonderful day for a birthday!
Love and much gratitude